It's nearly christmas

for some reason this year listening to christmas songs makes me feel like gagging. It just seems so pathetic! And I really really can't stand it when people start singing to themselves, or with a group of friends. Man that pisses me off.

today Mush and Nandi left, we didn't really give them a good leaving party or anything, but it's harder now days, I don't know why, but we're not as....vivid as we used to be. Instead we just chatted a bit. I wrote them a letter that they can read wheneve and hopefully it'll cheer them and help them to remember us. To be honest, Mushana seems really gutted about leaving me for a month or so. I didn't realise she was so attached to me. It's not like I don't like her, I really do, but I suppose the fact that we're going to see each other after the holiday means that I wasn't so upset about the whole thing. but then that's me, since when have I been upset that I wouldn't see someone for a while? I remember when I was in year ten, Kat was really upset that she wouldn't see me over the christmas holidays and I didn't get why. I don't think that makes me a bad person or anything, just different.

I gave Mohan a ring this morning, to match the paper clip one that she made for me. Well, that Vicky made for her to give to me. It's just a pipe cleaner but she seems to like it, so that's cool. I had a chat with Alyesha and Rachel and I feel much better now. I guess I was blowing things out of proportion before. hehe, ya, sounds like me. I just sometimes get confused with what's real, and what's not, like what is serious and what I'm making up to amuse myself.

In chemistry today we learnt about nmr. I think I understood it to begin with, but now that we're given questions on it I'm completely confused. It's really annoying as well because Nicola isn't here, and Mohan never helps me. Minal would, but she doesn't completely get it either, so there's no point in asking her. Basically I need to figure some stuff out for myself. I suppose that's like life, right? You can't keep asking for directions, after a while you have to make up your own mind. Wow that's pretty deep, and you know I'm shallow as a dish. Well at least I pretend to be most of the time. I feel it makes things easier. And if you're stupid enough to believe that it's true, well that's youre loss, huh.

Do you know that if all of my friends died now, we'd all regret the same thing? it's not rocket science though, I mean everyone in our situation would regret it. I feel bad that anyone who reads my blog will wonder what the hell I'm doing. See I'm not writing it for people anymore, I'm writing it for myself. Yes I like it when people comment and by people I mean Yas or Megan, but it's okay if they don't, because it's good to get thoughts out on paper likes this. and I have a lot of thoughts!!!

The ground was frozen today, and I had to walk carefully on my way to school to avoid tripping. Fishy yelled my name and I turned around and waited for her on the road. I didn't realise she could yell so loud. Then we walked the rest of the way together, I like fishy, she's cool. I wonder if she likes being called Fishy, or if she'd prefer Fiona? She doesn't seem like the kind of person that would care.

I have the death note soundtrack stuck in my head.

Latersz

Fannnnaaafliction

Do you know my friend Megan? So the other day, she actually went to this exhibition of that Harry Potter book, and pretended that she actually ahd enough money to take part in the auction. She's funny, that Megan. See, she's dedicated. Dedicated enough to pretend to be an aristocrat who can afford to spend hundreds and hundreds of pounds on a book.

Right so, my fingers are kinda cold, so I can't type very well. But if I sit on them and warm them up, then I wont be able to type at all. So basically we have what they call a "catch Twenty Two Situation." Maybe there could be an epic play made of out my plight. I could star in it.

See, I would really like a phone with a ringtone, I feel it would be the epitome of expression, to have my favourite something play whenever anyone calls me. Yes, I am thinking of "pump it" by the Black Eyed Peas, just to be hillarious. But I can't do that because my phone is from the dark ages where you have monotonic ringtones. Yeah you heard me. But then if I get a new phone I wouldnt' be able to use my harry potter cover and I DO LOVE MY HARRY POTTER COVER.

I've been reading too many fanfictions, so that in my life now, I feel like it must be a fanfiction, as in the actions that people do must be motivated by deep emotions such as hate or love. Unless it's a crack fic. Actually that would be my life really as a fanfic. A crackfic, where everyone's crazy and there's no plot.

Yep, that sounds about right.

So we've got my friends, and the whole situation is a bit weird to be honest. Nandi and I don't understand a thing the other says, Mushana has officially lost it, Mohan hates me, for unknown reasons, Vicky apparently likes me but I've no idea why, Fishy keeps trying to put boxes on my head and Kim is ACTUALLY STUDYING. What is this? Treachery is what it is. Anyway, it's driving me crazy and I was crazy to begin with. My head is all bouncing around between trying to be normal, and trying to figure out what my friends are on about. The whole thing just go so ridiculous. I've never been part of a big group of friends before, you see. Generally I just have one or two friends who are completely devoted to me and would do anything for me. Not that it wouldn't be mutual, but it's different to the situation that I have here.

I suppose part of the problem is that I loveeee it in my head. I'm just so fun to spend time with. Except people don't get it when I start laughing about something I said. Maybe cause it's not particularly funny. Or maybe because they think I'm thinking perverted thoughts. I'm which not. I can laugh at things that aren't perverted, you know. It's happened maybe seven or eight times in my life so far.

Hah ah. Kuukukukukukuku. That was laughter in the style of this anime character called Orochimaru. He's weeeiiird.

Oh, so you know aldehydes, if you add acidified potassium dichromate to them, then they turn from orange to green. It's a good test.

Meeep, I should learn things, but I'm really not in the mood. Not that I ever am. Maybe I'll just go back to reading some fanfics..... Laterzzz

Wild Sarizard Attacked!

I haven't much to say, you see and therefore I've not said much.
Ucas! Meeeeeep. And ramadan, oh the fasting! It makes me sleepy. But it's harder on the first days, after that it's okay. I'm a bit annoyed because we're going to someone else's house to break fast, but I suppose I'll get over it.


I'm supposed to be editting my book, but I do about a chapter and then get really really irritated. I hope it's cause I'm fasting.

School is school. I find myself clock watching more often than I like to. My friends are great thought. Homework seems to pass me straight by. And then I'm like what??? we had homework?? I didn't do it! I just hope that I do okay in the tests. I'm sure I should. I'm good at tests, right?

Year thirteen is strange, everything is a last, last first day, last open evening, last autumn assessments. I would have though it would be stranger having no one to look up to, but it's not.

I keep missing my stupid period, which is annoying because my mum keeps being on my case about it. What does she expect? I'm also super thin due to fasting, my stomach doesn't go OUT it goes DOWN! Isn't that cool?

University! Aaaaha. I don't know if it's for me, but I want to go anyway. I just want to have the funness, I'm not sure about the course. Maybe I should only apply for three year courses then? Or I'll change when I get on them. I'm just not really sure at all what I want to do.

I know I want to finish my book and send it to a few literary agents and hopefully get published, fingers crossed!


I think that's all, I lost Megan, no idea where she is or how she is but to be honest, I don't think I was making much of a difference anyway. Surprisingly, I wouldn't kill luke for breaking up with her, because I think I saw it coming or something. I would kill him for getting involved with her in the first place if he didn't think he would see it through, but I can't really blame him because Megan is really pretty and probably confused him with her femenine wiles. Yasamin troops on this week, alonnnnne with no cocktail.


:)

Get ready for ISWEEK!

Fiendish

As always I haven't been blogging. I think it's because I've been writing a lot, so I haven't been writing so much about me. Anyway, I've been talking a lot too so maybe I talked all the talk out of me.
I love the summer holidays, I feel like I spend all the summer holidays floating, you know?
I've been writing a lot, although I don't know how I'm ever going to get published at this rate. I just feel like I push my friends into reading my stuff even if they don't really like in.
On the plus side, I've written a lot of original fiction this summer and I prefer it to writing fanfics a l'instance.

How about peppermint tea. It makes your throat feel good!
Rachel and Kim are stars, brilliant brilliant friends. Kim is concerned about her boobs. Everyone, if you see Kim, tell her she had good boobs!!! It's what a friend would do.

I also miss Nandi and Mush but I think they should come back before school starts. It's a crime to miss school.

Okay, everyone, we are going to work this year. We all need to. No more sitting in the computer room and wasting time! We're going to STUDY in room 27 okay? OKAY? is that clear?

I can't believe we're going to university next year! (although rachel's dropping out to be a nail techincian) We're all so young, Fishy and Vicky can't go to university! They'll explode it! EXPLODE IT.

I love Megan, who is amaaaazing but thinks that she's shitty. But she's wrong! So wrong (call me, biatch)

That's all for now! Remember, this term STUDY STUDY STUDY!

I've been watching Torchwood as of late. It's really pretty good, kinda off beat, but good at the same. I didn't expect to like Jack and the rest of the team half as much as I do! And I'm a loon, because I go around asking everyone I meet if they watch Doctor who and then going completely made if they do. Of course, Laura and I talk about the Whoverse non stop on line, and Megan and I chat away about it on the phone.

I just had a breif tussle with my friends. We went out to get some lunch, but I wanted a chocolate bar, not a sandwich and ran to buy it before my friends could stop me. Then they tried to get me to return it and buy something better, so I ran down the street screaming "SANCTUARY" and took a bite out of it. Hurrah! Civil liberties win!

My friends and I spend an unhealthy amount of time in the computer room. BLAH!