I'm still not sure I've made the right choice, but sometimes I wish it was the 12th and I could just get it over with. It seems so drastic. I don't want to back out now.
I'm aware I'm being stupidly vague. I don't want anyone to guess. Because it wont work if they guess. I think. I'm not sure.
I'm just babbling. People around me are so happy. I stare at my reflection in the mirror. I'm ugly and scrawny and a coward.
It's funny how I have this whole thing planned. The whole everyone ignores me thing works, no one guesses. Well maybe one person, but apart from that, out of all of my friends, you would think at least a few more people would have. But they haven't.
I should have started preparing. I need to write emails and plan a speech but I can't bring myself to do it.
I'm having a bit of a rough patch right now, lots of things are bothering me.Most are caused my the internet.
Everything will get better soon.
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Same boat as me. Quite lovely. You know you're not alone in your plan of action?
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